Future Nadia #1

Dear Nadia,

Today is 9th of July, 2015. You're writing this in your room in the office! Haha. It's only one week to Aidilfitri :)

When you're (may or may not) reading this, 10 years had past and now you're 35 (if you're still alive-I hope I will). How has life been treating you so far? Is it good? Or is it amazing?

For now (2015), you've so many things to be thankful. 

Job? You got a good job with a good pay even it's only a contract basis. Your boss is kind-hearted woman even a bit strict. Your colleagues also amazing even few dislike you for no apparent reason but nahh it's okay, didn't effect your life in any way hehe.

Family? Alhamdulillah you still have family; parents and siblings who always love and support you no matter what.

Asset? You own a car (still in loan) even small but enough to bring you here and there.

Friends? You got a bunch of amazing friends. Even they seem far away now, you love them still. You struggle to understand that everyone has their own commitments now. Sometimes you miss them till your heart feel like wanna explode but you convinced yourself "This is life, people change, so do I". You miss them now and you know they're missing you too.

Love life? Hahaha. At the age of 25, you still single and available. You live in denial, you afraid to accept happiness but you're craving for it. Lame! Haha. You're waiting for someone that shows no effort and ignoring someone  who seriously wants you in his life. Moron? Haha. But you keep praying to Allah to show you a right path to take. 

As for now (2015), in 10 years I hope I become more stable, with a permanent job because Malaysia now in a worst economic problem. I hope I still have my parents and can afford to pay their bills, and support their honeymoon (the least I can repay and I hope I will give more than materials). I hope my siblings also success in their life and be content with whatever they may have now (2025). I hope now I own a car that I've been dreaming of, own a little warm house or some lots of land hehe. I still wanna keep friends that I've now (2015) till forever. Even life might change a little bit, but they're still important in my life as they always be.

In 2025 I hope I got at least 4 amazing subhanallah children! Haha. With a husband that love me no matter what and always be there for me and always be faithful. And so do I.

I always pray to Allah that my (our) life is on smooth sailing, that I always in faith no matter what happens. I always keep reminding myself that all of what I have now are loans from Allah. All belong to Him. If He wants to take it back, I have to surrender it no matter how much love I have for it, because in life, what He takes back, He will replace it with something much better. InshaAllah.

If this time I'm not anymore in this world, please spare your some time, recite Al-Fatihah for me and forgive me for my all wrongdoings. Thank you so much.